Well, what can I say? Not smoking is the absolute best thing in this world.
I am so glad that I finally made the decision to go the distance and never smoke again. What a difference it’s made in my life!
It’s amazing what I’ve accomplished in these past 24 days. It feels like I’ve done an entire year’s worth, that’s how much I’ve achieved.
I’ll be honest, there were some hints of physical withdrawal still scattered throughout my day at work, and I noticed them right away as symptoms, but they came and went very quickly.
What that means is that there is a tiny amount of nicotine still left in my body.
I still need to focus hard each and every day until I never feel any withdrawal. Who knows when that will happen.
The worst of it is in my past, and that’s where I want it to stay.
I’m forgetting about cigarettes more and more as each day goes by. When I get a little craving I think, “Oh that’s right, I used to smoke!”
Other than that, I don’t really think about them. At the beginning, especially during the first week, smoking was on my mind pretty much every minute of the day. All I thought about was relapsing and making excuses for it.
I do want to point out though, that over the weekend, I managed to hangout with friends for almost the entire day without smoking.
Three out of the four people I was hanging out with were chain smokers.
I went into it thinking it would be tough, as I’d be watching them smoke all day long, but as the day progressed, I was OK with it. I really didn’t feel too many urges to light up at anytime.
I played a game with myself and I counted how many cigarettes they smoked.
Drinking was involved, and I understand that the two go hand-in-hand, but it still was a lot to me. It seemed every 10 minutes someone was lighting up another.
That was me for many, many years.
Plus the car ride with them was just awful the way they smelled. As soon as they got in, you could smell the stench of an ashtray all over them.
This is what I smelled like for 18 years. It’s disgusting.
Of course smokers can’t smell themselves, so it really doesn’t matter to them.
But to us who don’t use tobacco, it matters a lot!
It wasn’t that hard though, watching them chain smoke while I enjoyed being healthy and sober. It was quite empowering.
I’m glad I managed to stay strong and not do anything.
But I was honestly OK with not smoking. Because I’ve lasted all this time, the cravings just weren’t as intense as they were the first week.
In terms of my everyday life, I’m as happy as can be. Life is pretty great right now. I couldn’t have said that 24 days ago.
Sleeping is just phenomenal. Today I woke up 45 minutes before my alarm completely rested and ready to spring out of bed.
Would I have done that as a smoker? Haha, never! I would’ve lied in bed until the very last minute. Now, I can’t wait to jump out of bed.
I’ve got so much energy!
I did experience some anxiety today. That part of my life still hasn’t gone away completely.
Maybe it has to do with the stress of work, or maybe it’s because I’m still going through some slight withdrawal symptoms. I really don’t know at this point.
None of it is severe, though.
As a smoker, I would have massive anxiety attacks almost everyday of my life. Now that I’ve quit, it’s gone down about 80%. I think that’s pretty awesome, and well worth it.
Hopefully tomorrow I won’t feel a single craving. I’m ready to be nicotine-free for life!