One week! I made it!
Today was such a glorious day. There were a few moments when I felt withdrawal, but overall, this was a fantastic day for me.
I felt great, I slept awesome, I had the day off, the sun was shining, my allergies weren’t bothering me, and I had all day to just relax and do my own thing.
Doesn’t that sound wonderful?
I still think it’s very misleading that these past 2 days have been extremely easy.
That’s when nicotine comes up with the perfect scenario to get me to smoke, and I can’t let that happen.
I’ve gone too far now to go all the way back.
I feel too great to want to start all over again. Really, it’s like black and white from before.
One thing I did contemplate today was how much I’ve accomplished in this last week. What was I doing one week ago? I was feeling horrible, that’s what I was doing.
I had planned a club night with my friends, and I knew, deep down inside, that I would’ve wanted to smoke while I drank.
In reality, all that meant was maybe sneaking outside to smoke 2 or 3 cigarettes at the most.
But sadly, that meant my entire last week (before this one) was spent chain smoking, because I couldn’t quit, and I knew I’d be smoking at the bar later on that week.
That is how the addiction gets you.
It makes you fear future events, and convinces you that you’ll never make it through the day without a cigarette, so you might as well light up until that point, and quit afterwards.
Isn’t that terrible? That’s exactly what happened to me.
All my friends are non-smokers now, and the bar itself is a non-smoking establishment, so all I really needed to do was stay inside and have a good time.
Sounds easy, right?
It does, except a few days prior to that, nicotine convinced me and fooled me into thinking that I should just smoke the remainder of the week, and go out to the bars, have a good time, and stop after that.
Unfortunately, that same exact scenario has plagued me in my life before.
Take one day and one step at a time.
You never know what the future holds. It’s no use wasting day after day thinking you’re going to want to puff away at a future date.
It’s ridiculous! You will always make excuses for yourself.
I felt horrible that entire week while I was waiting for the weekend, and waiting to quit.
My life right now is a total 180 from before.
Now I feel fantastic, I’m totally active in my day, I’m getting a lot of things done (that wouldn’t have gotten done before), sleeping is awesome, mornings are awesome, and I’m sure work tomorrow will be awesome as well.
It really is like black and white.
But, I can’t dwell on the past and think negative thoughts.
If I’m constantly worrying or dwelling on the past or the future, I’m bound to be caught off guard, and I don’t want that to happen.
I need to focus hard tomorrow, because it’s the beginning of my work week.
Last week at this time was pretty tough. I was hungover and going through crazy withdrawals, so it was an intense day.
I bet if I go back and read Day 1 it will seem much harder than Day 7.
Two weeks left before nicotine is out of my body for good.
I can still feel it inside of me definitely, and there are moments in my day where I feel a void, like I’ve lost something. But compared to Day 1, it’s getting much easier.