I did it!!! I made it 21 days without smoking!
Do you know what that means?
It means nicotine should no longer be in my body.
It means I am no longer a slave!
This has been such a great day! I need to keep it up!
Really though, it’s been pretty awesome. The sun was shining, it was my day off, my breathing was 90% better, my energy was back up, I didn’t have any cravings, and I just couldn’t be happier with the way things are going for me.
I’ve accomplished so much in these last 3 weeks.
Can you believe that?
18 years ago is how I feel now, because back then I had no nicotine in me, and as of now I shouldn’t have any in me, either. I was a smoker all those years in between.
Yea, there were a few times I quit, but I was never as passionate about it as I am now.
This means EVERYTHING to me right now.
That was my life before and that will never happen again.
I can go out with friends and enjoy myself without having to step outside every 30 minutes.
I don’t have to worry about smelling like an ashtray, or rushing to the bathroom to immediately wash my hands.
I don’t have to constantly have gum in my pockets. I don’t need a lighter on me anymore.
I don’t need to hide from my friends, or quickly change the subject when it comes to my addiction.
I don’t need to punish myself anymore for relapsing and I don’t need to spend every penny I’ve got at the bar every night.
It’s an amazing feeling. I feel like I just started my life, as if I hadn’t been living it the entire time.
I feel like from this day forward, every minute of the day will be a new adventure, and anything is possible.
I can be anyone I want to be. I don’t ever need to hide in the shadows of addition any longer.
I can finally be the real me.
I’ve never actually been the real me. I don’t even know what it’s like, but I will find out soon enough.
This is what I’m looking forward to the most out of everything.
I can be myself, instead of living under stress and anxiety attacks, which turn me into a zombie on a daily basis.
Yes, I still will have mental cravings and triggers to work through for a while longer, but the physical cravings are over with.
No more blurry vision, or anxiety attacks, or intense pains in my throat and stomach. No more freaking out and acting like a crazy person.
It is so worth the pain, and all the hardships.
Yes, it’s extremely tough, and it will test your every strength, but if you truly want to end your battle with addiction, you will.