Another day of allergy attacks, and that meant another day of clouded physical withdrawal.
It wasn’t as bad as it should’ve been because my allergies were so bad.
Remember, it’s rather impossible to feel both an allergy attack and an intense cigarette craving at the same time. It’s always one way or the other. That’s just the way it is in my world.
It was almost predictable.
For the first 2 hours of my day, I was completely miserable, sneezing and blowing my nose every 5 minutes.
I couldn’t even really open my eyes on my bus ride to work, so I just kept them closed the entire way. They would just water otherwise.
Of course, that has nothing to do with nicotine withdrawal. But I will honestly tell you I never felt any cravings while I was having an allergy attack.
I woke up immediately having them, that I will admit.
In fact, I had forgotten that I quit.
Soon after, the allergies took control.
There were many times during the day when I began to have physical ailments, like stomach aches, dizziness, anxiety, and fatigue.
Ironically, I only felt those symptoms when I didn’t feel like sneezing and blowing my nose. It was literally one or the other.
As soon as I started sneezing again, the withdrawal went away.
Unfortunately, this is VERY misleading.
Just because it “seems easy” now doesn’t mean for one second that it will always be.
It’s easy to think, “Well I really didn’t feel any cravings today. I’ll be fine.”
No you won’t!
You’ll be caught off guard and be convinced to smoke in a heartbeat. I should never feel, at this moment in time, that the worst is behind me.
Tomorrow is only Day 4. It’s still only the beginning. If I don’t have any sort of allergic reactions, which is totally possible, it’s likely to be a very tough day.
I’m sure the physical will come back with a vengeance. It always does.
I know I said that Day 1 is ultimately the hardest, but that is not 100% always the case.
I’ve witnessed the hardest day being Day 5, Day 13, or even Day 21.
Just because it’s at its lowest level in your body on Day 21, that doesn’t mean in real life that you won’t be in the worst scenario possible, like a wedding or possibly even the death of a loved one, or an extremely stressful day at work.
What would you do then?
I had a goal of making it home tonight from work, and I did it despite all the stressful moments.
When I wasn’t sneezing, and having moments of intense withdrawal, I thought about cigarettes. Of course I did.
When I’m in a really stressful situation, I think about smoking all the time. After 18 years, it comes natural to me.
It’s the first thing I think about.
I also know that this is not nearly the end yet, and I still have a ways to go before my body is free from nicotine. So I know it’s probably going to get worse before it gets better.
It’s still a little early, and I’d be foolish not to think the cravings will return.
It’s really awful though, when I look around at other people, and I don’t see them struggling with anything I’m going through.
I feel really alone at times.
Why do I have to be going through all of this? Half of it is my fault.
The only way to do that is to feel horrible for 3 weeks before everything goes away.
However, that is nothing, but it’s the main reason why millions of people can’t quit.
Those first few weeks are killer! But it’s absolutely imperative.
Day three of cold turkey and doing fine except for the mind trying to find a reason to buy cigs. This is my second attempt after 35 years of smoking and it seems easier. I really believe any nicotine via patch or vape is bad. But whatever gets you through. My bronchitis is still here but hoping to get through tonight without a coughing fit. May take a month or two but I am ready to be rid of it for good. Good luck all and stay strong!!!!
Day 3. Half of it was pretty tough, half of it – survivable. So Thank you dear universe, today was less tough than yesterday. Actually I thought about cigarette straight after waking up. I usually do, but somehow forced myself to go for a quick walk instead, which was nice, had some freshly squeezed carrot juice and nice cup of coffee while walking, went to the new job, survived the creative session and then cravings kind of eased up, at least for today – I went home, did some delayed tidying, jogging and meditation. So more or less good Third day comparing with day 1 or 2
I’m on day 3. The first 2 days Cold water and butterscotch candy or peppermints helped. Little bit of sweet tea also helped. Today I was like ok this is really hard. I put on a step 3 patch that really burnedmy skin but I was focused on that instead of wanting a cigarette so I guess that’s good. I’m doing this. I’m gonna rotate cold turkey and patches on my bad days because I feel like the longer I can make it in between patches with no cigarette the better chance I have right? I’m only uses the patch today at 2pm it’ll be off by 10. So I consider that’s step in the right direction. I have to quit. I’m pretty sure I have sleep apnea and I can’t keep swallowing my tongue in my sleep. I’m 28 and otherwise in perfect health. I have to be able to do this.
I’m on day 3. First two days didnt seem that bad- cut out caffeine a couple weeks before, had a straw cut to cig size to put in hand and mouth and to breath air through – but today I feel antsy with slight headache, having issues with insomnia and seem to be having muscle tremors in my back and legs – I would describe them as minor but irritating and not helping with the insomnia.
Today was my day 3. My goal every day is to get my head on the pillow at night without having a cigarette. While it’s only dinnertime, I feel confident that I will get through the next few hours. The problem I’m having is the habit cigarettes. Today I cooked a big pot of meat sauce and had a movie going on in the kitchen while I was cooking. this is typical but running outside in between cooking to have a cigarette and get some fresh cool air since cooking was making the kitchen warm was where I was missing smoking the most today. Usually when I’m cooking something at the stove, especially on a weekend afternoon, I enjoy a few glasses of wine and cigarettes. To me, these two items are hand holders. So now, I’m not even having any wine because if I do, that will be the end of me not smoking. I know I will want to run to the store. And the thought of the familiar scenario, cooking, movie playing, few glasses of wine and some smokes while hubby is outside doing yard work, sounds awful good to me. But the cooking is done and hubby is inside now and we are getting ready for dinner and some TV watching. All I have to do is get my head on that pillow.